12:11 p.m., 2002-12-19
so after what shockingly amounts to nearly two months, the first group of real notes were formes by my stiffnened fingers and spun into spools of magnetic tape.the cast isn't gone, i just worked around it. it felt good going to bed last night. in the past four days my total of hours slept was a whopping seven. 89 hours of wakefulness out of a possible 96. not a record, but not bad.
i don't feel alive again, but i'm getting there.