i shuddered my car to life and began to drive away thinking...

...someday everything will be ok. it sucks when you have to get to thinking that.

people always talk about how they listened to their radios, driving, windows down, etc. i shut mine off tonight. i was alone with my thoughts and driving on an empty highway. i felt nothing. i feel nothing. the drive went by all too quickly and here i am at home. alone. feeling nothing in particular. poised to attack another week of killing time. tonight, as i fall asleep i will listen to scheer because someone has to. everyone i come into contact with listens to all of these ridiculous "emotion-packed" alterna bands. someday glasses and sweaters and coffee and techno music and distant melancholy will go back out of style and a whole generation of morons will be lost like the doomed meatheads who listened to the cure when i was younger.

someday everything will be ok.

so i made the drive with that as my mantra and realized upon arriving that i should have never left in the first place because i was only fooling myself.