i undress for bed alone and things flash to contrasty black-and-white 16mm film. i plod across the tangle of cords on the floor with a distracted look in my eyes. i pause and pull on a shirt and calmly slide under the sheet and my eyes don't shut right away. a streetlight i swear should not even exist casts a slatted shadow on my unshaven cheek as i stare into space.

nothing special happens.

i'm not sure i expected anything.