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1:13 p.m., 2001-10-11
there was a time when i actually thought of getting married. not to anyone specific, i just thought that it would be feasible and satisfying. it was a consideration. for some reason it is really hard for me to admit this crap. there were candidates. i was REALLY young and exceptionally stupid.now i find myself rationalizing reasons not to get married and start drawing up plans for that proverbial white picket barricade. no one ever questions their motives for NOT getting married, it is 99% of the time the other way around.
i have friends who are married, and i have to admire the effort they put into the facade they must put up in order to seem 'normal'. i bet that when their wives ask them 'is anything wrong?' they still say no as if they are trapped into giving the 'right' response. it's just that it's so much easier that way. life is, i mean.
i used to look for an excuse to be married and live happily ever after, but those who are not turned into cynics by life are either ignorant or morons. happily ever after means avoiding a fight.
no thanks.
